30th Nov 2012

I want to remember this day. I lost a major reason to look forward to everyday. A bit disappointing end of the year. Hope for better days soon.

An Evening.

Well I hope that I don't fall in love with you
Cause falling in love just makes me blue
Where the music plays a new display of hard for me to see
I head a beer and now I hear you calling out for me
And I hope that I don't fall in love with you.

Now the night does funny things inside a man
These old tom cat feelings you don't understand

I turn around a look at you you light a cigarette 

I wish i had the guts to bum one but we've never met

And i hope that I don't fall in love with you.

I can see that you are lonesome just like me 

And it being late you'd like some company 

well I've had a look at you 

and you look back at me 

The guy you're with is up and split 

that chair next to you is free

And I hope that you don't fall in love with me.

Now it's closing time

The music's fading out

Last call for drinks 

I have another staff

I turn around and look at you

You're no where to be found 

I search the place for your lost face

And have another round

And I think that I just fell in love with you.

- Marc Cohn for 'Prince & Me'

Back to December

Dear Friend,

You know what was I thinking while driving back home today? that I don't remember our last conversation. I would have remembered it if I knew it was our last conversation.You never think the last time's going to be the last time, you think there will be more. You think you'll have forever, but sometimes you don't.

I have so much to say and I crave to hear your words. But this is what I get for my wrong, I get to live a life knowing I'll never have you.

I re-play our times and keep memories refreshed. If you could ever forgive and take me back, I'll wait for you where we left.

Yours,

C

The laws of the world.

The world has his ways. Its already decided, divided, distributed in a way and

is functioning like that since... since we know it exists.

There is a certain rulebook. The pre set norms of a well lived life, Some criteria to be a good person. Its convenient to live a life within them. Just like to flow with the flow of the river. 

It totally make sense.

Even then, Some of the most obvious rules of this world doesn't make sense to me at times and this is not the worst part of it. The worst part is it does to you, which makes you one of the rest of the world.

"How could you live and have no story to tell?"

When I was young, much much younger, Among many fond memories I have is how good my dad was with Rubik's Cube. Yeah that toy, got six colour coded faces and we shuffle them thus mixing up the colours. For the puzzle to be solved, each face must be returned to consisting of one colour. He was good, and I was bad I still am. :P

I know the reason why. He used to dare ruining a perfectly done side in order to get other sides done where as me, I fix a side and couldn't move ahead because moving ahead means messing it up. One has to look at the bigger picture and the bigger picture is to look beyond fixing one side and move ahead to solve the cube.

With whatever little adventure i had in my little lived life, I can say 'taking every day as it comes' is no fun. The fun is to aim the sun, the stars and chase them. The fun is to take a chance, make mistake, get lost, laugh at it and at yourself and then take a new turn. In short, its about moving on and never stop.

So even if you have solved the puzzle, you are suppose to pick, shuffle it up again. Every time you shuffle, you'll find a new way to solve it. And some of you might never be able to solve it like me but you cant help but keep trying. That's what the puzzles made for. If they are fixed and placed safe in a shelf, they are just another show piece.