Think again,before u pray..

I remember my mom told me this story when i was just 7-8 years old...Its about the reincarnation of Lord Vishnu.
In Satyug both Devakiji n Yashodhaji prayed to lord n asked him to be her son..
Devakiji said.."My lord, i want u to born as my son."
Yashodaji said.."I wish i can see all ur childhood pranks being ur mother."
When lord Vishnu took Krishna avtaar in Dwapar yug he born as Devakiji's 8th son who was brought to Yashodhaji.Lord Vishnu(Krishna) stayed with her in Brij as her son till his chilhood times and then went back to Devakiji and in this way both the wishes granted.

Now why am i quoting this??Wake up guys..Didnt u realise????Lord make fool of both the ladies.I mean both of them didnt actually got what they want but just a part of it.May be because they were too smart n they dont know how to wish.
Wat i m trying to say is one should be very careful before praying for something.We can ask 4 sumthing but it may be possible that when we actually have it, it seems that we were fool or an asshead to ask 4.
Was so desperate to be where i am right now.Dreamt of all the things i am doing right now. Left all the other things i loved, i alwz want to be part of just to persuade this dream.
But i see myself as a big looser. Realising that this was never i want, why the hell did i prayed 4 it???
My prayers were listened, my wishes been granted, but i think time changed, my life changed n my wishes too...
Should have think twice before i joined my hands, before i bend on knees, before i lowered my head and before i prayed to lord.Life moved n i grewup..
"My Lord!! I really dont know what life has there to show me,I dont know i'll be the same person 2morrow or nt, my wishes, my prayers n the importance of people around me will change or nt...all i want is to be happy n satisfied.I am sure then all my people will be happy n deserving people will be blessed.Amin"!!!!!

Wasnt dreaming..but that was wonderland!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How was your New Year eve?? well I don’t know bout u but mine was rocking!! Was with my frnds, with my family!!!! What one can ask more 4???

Boarded on the train make me feel like...I am at home :) .n this time, kukku,chuttan,bhai, didi, amit all were thr so i was basically dying to reach back.. Planned my holidays for 5 days but they extended n i came back after a long 11 days of refreshing vacations. First few days were with ma, did shopping and then sat 2 gether in 'sardi ki dhoop'.For the first time i realized how wonderful she looks in sunshine.. :)....I enjoyed waking up in the morning and walk sleeplessly to our drawing room,lay down on our sofa with my head on my papa's lap... Wat i miss most is i didnt get quality time with my sis..:(..next time will be with her....

I also met sum old frnds 4m school, did time pass in CCD,went 4 boating, went to a beautiful museum, to gayatri mandir,birla mandir,watch dhoom2(but hrithik is no match to 'my hero'.) i met my 'phone bhai'..(yupp, i actually hav a telephone bhai n i met him 4 the first time)..and went chouragarh mandir,pachmarhi.. Now last one came as a huge surprise, cause i nvr imagined in my wildest dream 4 that to happen.. We planned, convinced all, jump into a sumo n here we go.....pachmarhi....yehhhhhhhhh

Me,amit kukku, rani,mumma n my lil'sis.. Sounds like grt fun n picnic na??? nai jee….every coin has two faces.. to yahan bhi hai, kahani mein twist.. When we reached there, came to know that there is no road 4 reaching that temple n we are suppose to cross 4 hills to be there… The 1st thing we did was to left mumma there..n then start climbing..now most of u who r reading this knows..how sporty I m???(ahm ahm..)n how nautanki i m? (this one is a truth!!)..to bas….enjoyed the ride while amit was trying to pull me up n kuku was pushing me….in short..was crying all the time…walkin>>sitting>>crying… Everytime I start complaining n cring..kukku used to say”bas 5 min ka rasta aur hai aaloo…pahunch gaye bas!!”Such a liar.. Amit teased me alot..asking me again n again ..bout ‘my hero’ and we also found his peechle janam ka pyaar, curved on a stone..’kiran’..he he he.. Lil’sis took grt pics and we reached temple after 3 hrs of long continuous walk..I mean I was very satisfied..bhai mannat mango to aisi place ki….on other side of the world…then it feels like..had done sumthing that I can narrate to my grandchildren…”see beta.. dadima was so strong because she used to drink milk everyday..” Temple Was very beautiful..its an old temple of lord shiva with lots n lots of trishools everywhere..A mad guy was crying n shouting there n was accusing god 4 his miserable life.Anywz..i was feeling quite top of the world..i was actually on the top na.. .:) We enjoyed the trip a lot..drank nimbu paani,ate chana,n icecream…yummmmmmmmmm

We also halt near a very beautiful place on roadside. Was looking like a painting with a river, shore, greenry , rocks n hills.. We clicked lots of photographs and amit made a video of mine(yupp, quite naughty!!) . i felt lost in that raw beauty, so pure n untouched.

On our way back .. we played antakshari n I sang lots of songs n dedicate it to my dear frnds. Amit teased me 4 every single romantic song I sang.. I am avoiding the post trip consequences..like fatigue n strain n broken feets..but when else that matters..

Being in my city was never that fun(after cumin on job ofcourse!!)..Being at home was never better..i actually lived this short span of time exactly the way I want…Like the bewildered Alice dreamt about her wonderland..Wonderland full of things she wants to do, the excitement she wants to face, the love, tender care she expects or the tea parties she enjoy..

i was nt dreaming...but was in the wonderland...

On Sleepless roads...I Sleepless go.....

Its 3:14 am n i m feeling quite awake, inspite of the fact that i travelled 10 long hours n then did awaragardi all the day!!!
This title was in my mind 4m long!! I m spending sleepless nights.. n dont know why!!i m moving sleeplessly ..
m i tensed, stressed, done, finished?????i hope i have answers..then wont be here at this time..

I alwz considered myself blessed for the people around me n the life i hav lived...but nowadays i think bhagwanji is angry with me.He just cant see me happy 4 long..Its looking to me like i m paying tears 4 evrytime i smile...

I think i made mistakes..mistakes of being gud to people who nvr deserve that, denyed what my heart said, made people sad..n may b lots more!!!Past cant be changed....but i can try to change myself...and 4 what i hav already done i can just pray n say...
"Bhagwanji i know u tried to save me, tried to show me way but may be i didnt undstan or was not true to u...plz plz let me bear the results..keep my people away 4m this....keep all of them happy...cant see them like this, this pain..let it be mine..n all these smiles...give these to them...plz...!!!!!"

The Grasshopper and The Glass house

Can be a lucky day 4 him, sun was shining bright, had enough food. Our dear grasshopper was taking nap under a dandelion flower and dreaming about winning the annual jumping race. His name was every where, he took a grt jump, just miss the moon.
But dreamz and reality…a boy came 4m nowhere and tried to grab his hind limb. He tried to jump, broke his leg, caught n even before he could realize was put into an upside down glass jug with a floor of cotton and sum bread crumbs on the window rim.

He would hav think about where he is n wats going on, if his leg was nt hurting!! He was in immense pain n there came some house flies (hf)…
1st hf.- ”See See!!!!(With grinning smile!!)Finally got a lesson, used to irritate us with his violin and songs, justice done !! ”
2nd hf- ”But wat happened to his leg??? It looks like he is….”
Grasshopper came in between…”Hello ladies!! What a wonderful day out there!! May I accompany u???”
1st hf- “Ur talking to us????(in girlish attitude) What are u doing here??”
Grasshopper said- “now what can I say!! I am this year’s winner of annual jump tournament!! They gifted me with this glass house..”
2nd hf said- ”Wat??? U hav been gifted with this house?? We thought..”
1st one interrupted-“we think ur been punished!!”
Grasshopper replied- “Me punished!!! With this comfort and coziness, u really think so?? See my dream palace..see how beautiful world looks 4m here, no cold no fight 4 food!!! ”

House files get jealous but they hurried cause Mrs. Spider came there..
Mrs. Spider gave a look to the glass house n then to the grasshopper, she asked-
“What the hell on the earth is this???????”
Grasshopper replied- “G’monin m’am!! I am the famous ‘grasshopper’ from the music world”
Mrs. Spider asked- “But Why have u been caged???n wat happened to ur leg??”
He replied with usual politness- “Actually I was giving a concert n my fans, u see they love me a lot..tring to take my autograph n I my leg get stuch in the crowd.. I am in this glass house 4 rest!!! My leg went for medication! ”
Mrs. Spider didn’t like this- “Even I weave well but nobody praises me!! This is not fare!!! I will raise voice, u been so popular n enjoying this comfort no body think about my talent!!!”.. n murmuring these words she left!!

Grasshopper sat down n gave a look to his leg!! He finally got time to think about the pain..and here comes miss butterfly….
Bubbly, innocent Miss. Butterfly…..
“Ohhh my god!!!!!!!!!! U can be so rude!!!! This is not justice, what have u done?????poor poor fellow!!”
Grasshopper recollect all his strength n greet “Hello miss. How r u today????”
Miss butterfly was nt in mood, she said- “I hav complete sympathy with u!!!! How all this happen????ur leg n this cage??”
Grasshopper said- “Leave all this..tell me dear.. Why r u looking pale today. Ur beautiful pink colour is not at its charm?? Any problem???”
Miss butterfly get scared n forget all her worries about our hero- “Wat???? M I looking pale???oh my god!!! Its that pesticide they spay on cabbages, m I looking spotty also???”
Before grasshopper replied she flew murmuring about different medicines and therapies she would take to save her skin n herself.

Grasshopper gets tiered. His pain was getting over his words… he was about to sit back when he saw a caterpillar crwling to him with several feet altogether.…
This hurts him. Hurts him in deep, that pain grows and starts flowing through his eyes.. Suddenly he realized, he can no longer continue this happy–go-lucky attitude, he cant fool himself. Its enough..he can no longer pretend, cant made more stories..
He broke down- “oh mother nature..is what ur justice is?? U gave 40 legs 2 ur one son n other is lame just cause his one broken leg!!” the tears were steaming down his eyes..

Caterpillar was through with the scene.He said..”Bro!! What’s grt if I hav 40 feet, a hen can run n beat me anywz!! Mother Nature blessed every one with something distinct!! We all have different habits N needs. But this HEART is wat with everybody.. Which loves, give courage ,cares n my dear grasshopper u have a heart of gold, ur courage and optimism, ur care 4 unknown people is over hundreds n thousands of legs.. What ur worried of????”
“Thank you!! Buddy!!” Grasshopper wiped his tears and was obliged. “I’ll never forget ur words.U draw me back!! I know Mother Nature loves all her children and she’ll take care of me!! Who can think better 4 a child but his mother!!” He picked his violin back and started playing the song…

I sing on to u my lord!!
So wat if its from this glass house!!
I know u can hear my heart!!
When I am true to you!

Sun still shines on me.
Moonshine kisses my cheeks..
My violin fed my soul
When I am true to you!!

Love you my lord, n this life u gave
Don’t need any reason 4 wat I am here
why to be unhappy..
As I was n I’ll be true to you!!!

A Chapter from my favroite book....

"have u ever read a book which u never wanted to end.... but still there was this last page with a THE END written in bold letters in tht book, and for the next few days the only thing u used to think abt was the characters in tht book, there lives and everything abt them which u found got attached to u without ur notice ..... u can always read tht book again and live thru there lives once again but it wud never be wht it was like the first time...... "

Yupp!! I had lived the best!! n nthing is better then the best..
I know that reading a book all over again will nt b like it was at d first time.. but reading it again can be a total drive through!!! I experienced it past day!!

It was almost 5 months since I met Amit.. n when finally met him yesterday, I was like.."sachchi!! itna time ho gaya kya???.. ..". I was waiting 4 him since moning n when, saw him coming, behind that glass door of my ODC.. I instantly feel..i reopened one of the best chapter of my favorite book :).
We planned to attend ruby di’s marriage. Avi was already there..
We board the bus at noon n there starts a series of all farji discussions, dantana, gussa hona, manana, love stories and hadse!!. Amit alwz have something to say.. irrelevent and nonsence but funny and dramatic.. we were commenting upon all the unclejis n auntijis n we had a fight with the conductor too..but u can easily imagine my level of happiness, just cause I was with my frnd..
Bus dropped us to the destination at around 5:00 pm and Avi was waiting 4 us!! There comes the ‘kodak moment’ ,they see each other, smile n hugged!! Two best frnds, two most farji guys of this entire universe!!

Wedding was on the same day but was hardly in my mind. All I was thinking about is to be with my two monkeys, but after all I am a gal yaar.. normal, “just left her teenage” gal. I was well prepared with my brand new salwar kurta, matching footwear, earrings, makeup n all!! We went to the place where all people were staying and avi put our luggage in a room. Guys get ready quickly n I took some time which was worth of cause 4 a change I was actually looking good.. :) we reached at the wedding place by 8:30 pm.
It was so cold out there. I was feeling it in my bones, veins, kidneys, pancreas n all.. we were waiting for barat near angithi, n my mind was busy with malai kulfi available there.

I was in demand.. u know.. I was this long , slim, beautiful gal with ‘kajrari aankhen’ catching every eye and all auntiji’s were try to find my name and all guys were giving me 2nd look.. ok ok…
Actually I was the only gal there(4m bride’s side) n that 4m nowhere to everyone was like..”yeh kaun hai????muft kaa khana khane to nai ghuss aai..”
Generally I don’t like this, but I enjoyed it this time. Barat came late, di was looking ultimate and it was tough to figure out who is more lucky, the bride or the bridegroom??? Bahut rocking jodi hai yaar!! Fir to ji..thand ne limits hi cross kar di!!! It was so cold n chilling out there that we wrapped bride and bridegroom in blanket and then they say all the vows. We came back to guest house at 5:30 moning for the bidai pooja, n it was around 6:30am when three of us changed, non makeup and were sitting together in a cozy room in blankets. Start talking about old days, frnds and goes in a flash back.. Both the nerds kept suggesting me to take rest n that I should sleep because I have to attend office nxt monin, but that didn’t came in their “small like electron” mind ke bechari soyegi kahan??? Hum dono to razai odhkar maze se bed par soye huye hain!!!!!!!!.. when will they start treating me like a gal????

Anywz we(me n amit) catch 8:00am bus and I came sleeping throughout the journey. Borded wrong bus, feel lost, catch an auto and get back to our place sumhow!!
I had a grt time, n that after such a long time...after so long, i was nt worried of getting lost n was nt lonely....
Things changed alot,was nt like it was before.we were so carefree n happy soul, NO OFFICE NO TENSION,NTHING!!!Those were the best days n was the best part of the book,but I think i shud keep reading my favroite book.. or better say i shud keep adding new chapters in it.... without caring about THE END .
:)

Decode...Decipher....Decrypt :)

Seeing the frequency of the posts, u can guess what kinna work I do here????
No, I work!!!! And I sincerely enjoy my work. Each and every bit of it!!But office life asai hoti hai yaar..I don’t think I am in need of explaining IT world here..
"Samajhne wale samaajh gaye hain..naa samjhe who anadi hai!! "
Presently my PIA is not able to connect server so I am here, doing tp. :D

Life is going cool.. I am working on ERP Package, aham.. ERP package bole to Enterprise Resource Planning, matlab sab paka pakaya maal hai bas thoda idhar udhar utha patki karo aur kaam khatam..samjhe!! :)

In ERP, I am in People Soft technology..na na.. don’t mind if u nvr heard of it cause maine bhi pehli baar hi suna hai L.kuch to bhi hai, just drag drop and copy paste types. Then a browser is there where we can have online transaction screens and all…
Pehle I used to feel like, mujhe Africa ke desert mein bhej diya gaya hai!!!!! There was so much to explore aur main to thodi si..…...woh…..….zaraa………..matlab samajh bhi jaao....haan...wahi......nonsense hun na(he he he!!)
But now my chemistry with People Soft (PS) is changing, its getting on track and “ m loving it”..its going cool….
There are Different tools in it!!

PIA is the navigation tool. It makes PS understandable, approachable and easy. Infect PS is nothing without this. We are extremely comfortable with each other and have grt compatibility. But what to do?? He left me alone here, I am missing him. :(

App designer is the developing tool. I am equally comfortable to work on and may develop similar compatibility with him one day. This one gives details about his actions, and hence u can trust him .He actually try to provide a lot of ease, have lots of inbuilt functions, alwz working(unlike PIA) and I think is interested in me, but I am in love with PS Query.

This is a reporting tool, completely different stuff from what I have ever done. It’s approachable and an absolute delight to work upon. IT is actually challenging and interesting. I feel how wonderful PS is, with PS query in it. Though, didn’t give background details and is not at all trustworthy and worst is this,can be integrated with any out of people tool functionality. But I am attracted to PS query. It’s good for my Carrier. Now the point is this, I think ‘A’ is better with him (Infect I am sure), I am no where. How m goanna make everyone feel that I can and m desperate to work upon PS query??? 'K' says its my fault.I have shown equal skills in all the tools and then we have ‘A’ with us, who is bond of this tool. Both are made for each other. Why i'll be considered????Mera kya hoga???pata nai???
Let’s see, Where I go in PS and whether PS query is in my fate or not!! I’ll keep updating u guys about my carrier(I know u are nt interested but aur likhun bhi kya?? Poora time office mein kat jaata hai..kissi aur cheez ke liye time kahan???)
Till then try to save urself from all the boring stuffs I write and think.
Kouser (one of my colleague,sits in my cubicle, i m nt sure of the spelling of his name.) is playing jagjit singh’s ‘hoshwalon ko khabar kya’..
what a lovely song ..
“Hum labon se keh na paye hal-e-dil unse kabhi..
Aur who samjhe nahi ke, khamoshi kya cheez hai!!”

Au revoir ! ! Vous bénir !
:)

Love, friendship and relationships!!!

See It’s a topic recently reviewed by a frnd of mine..picked up the same title 4m there, but I think I can enlighten people with some of my thought!!

Love, indeed a very heavy ‘word’!! Cant use it for every one and I agree that its very confusing. You have different people, different relations but same feeling, u love them. u love ur parents, frnds, family, boyfrnd, husband, children n so many more. it is confusing naa!!
But I think love is a very capable ‘word’. Capable of handling all these relations together…and its nt the confusion with love, its the confusion with our mind, which tries to materialize love.Love don’t have forms, magnitude or types..its just a feeling of heart for a person who is urs. Anyone, irrespective of ur relation with him.love dont have expectations, dont need reasons, any thought or anything. u love people, even if u dont want to, even if u want to stop urself to do so.

Relationships is something which, if not materialize wont stay long. It’s a very practical ‘word’, very responsible ‘word’. We can love anyone anywz but we can’t have similar relationships with everyone. I love my friend, I love my boyfriend, I love both but I have different relationships with them, I have different responsibilities for them n different expectations too. Responsibilities and expectations are obvious with relationships and hence one shouldn’t move into, until he/she is ready 4 handling these ‘words’. Being in a relationship is a mature thing,u have it cause u want to hav..its a decision.But love can be childish, can be unreasonable n stupid.

And for that specific relationship, termed as “love of ur life” things get further complicated. Because I think it’s not just about love, responsibility or expectations, it’s a matter of lifetime. It’s about picking up a guy n putting him on the level of my parents, leaving my sweet home n living with him. Wake up every morning next to him. This need lots of things to take care of. We can’t led a cool life if don’t feel comfortable with each others family and life style. But what if I love a guy who is of opposite pole in every sense, what if he is not responsible and what his life style includes all those things which I hate?????
Love doesn’t see this. Don't care.Love can’t think na!!
I think I’ll go with my mind!!! I can start loving someone but cant wake up next to an irresponsible nt able to hold me kinna nerd, even if I love him alot!! As simple as that!! same goes with me, why one should live his life with me if i am not being able to add something to what he already have.
Love is everything, its pure, satisfying and its the need of every human soul, without love i wont be what i am, u wont be what u are... but,Life is not just about love, its not as simple as shahrukh and kajol love story n “sarson ke khet mein” songs!! Its what our parents do..live together and face things together. Being there 4 each other, trust each other.Bring up there children and love them.. I may be sounding like ammaji… but for me.. practicle world is what matters..rather than fairy tales which honesly i love alot but, i am no cinderella and there is no prince waiting for me, cause life is very diffrent then what it seems....
Sorry kalway..i am nt trying to put u on spot or sumthing...sachchi!!! :)